21.12.2019 by tilmongaddyjr
new member
fort worth Texas
35 years old
male
my friend brought this site and forum to my attention.i was born healthy. i laughed, smiled, but ive always had problems expressing myself especially when it came to love. im very good at telling other people like friends how much they mean to me but with women its very difficult . i had a good relationship when i was 25. we ended up going our separate ways but she taught me how to express myself and share my feelings. in my next relationships i had no problem with that and i was happy. but something drastic happen in my life. around 28 my girlfriend at the time i believe was pregnant with another person's baby. i couldn't prove it but somethings just didn't add up.she said she lost the baby but i believe she got an abortion. next i went to therapy because i had a hard come staying in relationships which she traced back to mom and the abusive relationships emotionally and physically i endured. after therapy four years to be exact, i felt i was on my way but during this time i met a girl who crushed me again. we were in a good relationship until she got pregnant and decided to have an abortion. she wasn't ready to have one and i believe she was afraid of my emotionally inability to be there for her which hurt a lot because i want to and try to but its very difficult. so here i am now trying to break this last chain that i feel is holding me back in my life from falling in love, getting married, and having a child.