It’s very hard to write this. I can’t seem to get out what I really mean you know? Or how do I tell this story? What I can say is I scored a 149, so Hugh Alexithymia traits? Possibly? What drove me to finding out this is when my co worker came to me saying how her dad is in hospital, honestly I couldn’t care. I know it sounds mean but I could go on without thinking twice on how she feels. I can’t go to my GP because he doesn’t listen to me and my therapy hasn’t started and he told me it would MONTHS ago. I suffer from insomnia and depression and I know I’ve had some events that have caused me to be like this but I’m not sure if there is anyway back? I can’t even relate to how you guys are feeling, reading some of your forums when I attempt to help I just cannot. I don’t understand and i think it annoys me. I want to understand all of this??
Hi Natasha. I scored 147. My father died many years ago but I felt nothing. My mother died 7 years ago and I felt nothing. My only brother died 1 month ago and I felt nothing. But every time my dogs and cats have died over the years I have been overwhelmed by pain and anger and left unable to function until I have been able to repress it. Guess I prefer animals to people.. maybe.
I would torture myself inside if someone close to me died which is why I don’t interact with many people or it’s just the fact that I have terrible social anxiety. It’s weird how my emotions are accelerated or decelerated when around others as at funerals I stand emotionless until someone close cries in which I realise what’s happened and I feel stuff.