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My Experience - 16 with a Score of 154
19.09.2019 by Kat22

I got 154 and I am 16 (female). I have never been able to understand nor "get" my or anyone else's emotions. That's not to say I don't feel them, I do. I just don't "get" them. When others express emotions lightly I never know what they are. If someone is crying it automatically connects with sad and even then I don't know what to do. I tend to think very logically so it bothers me that I can't always chalk emotions up logically. My mother, as well as my two younger sisters, are very emotional and don't understand how I don't understand. I recently found out about Alexithymia (while trying to research some emotions). I do not think that my mother would be very accepting if I were to bring the idea to her. I am sure there is so much more to add but I don't know where to start.

07.10.2019 by SamTheMan

Male 26 with 123. That is after ~2 months of therapy, which has helped me a lot. The score would have been a LOT higher 2 months ago. I experienced what you are describing a lot, only in my family, we don't talk about our feelings. Almost at all. Been dragging that almost all my life and had no idea what was going on. I had a really hard time lately and that's why i went to the therapist. Maybe something you might want to try. Mom may be understanding if it involves a professional.
Thank sweet baby Jesus, i feel good now. Although i do often feel bad too. But I feel.
Btw, at the moment I'm probably the most emotional in our family. I guess it's a phase of discovering those feelings and learning to work with them.

30.05.2020 by Ajai_Nandha

Male 20 with 154...I am in the exact situation of youuu..I don't know what to do..May be if you wish we could discuss on what it feels like..

02.06.2020 by User71934P81

I am 16, male, same score and think the same reaction would happen if I brought it up. I only experience genuine joy and annoyance. I haven't felt sad or stressed for years which I suppose is a good thing, however it appears to me that I am different to everyone else in a negative situation. Love never even existed, I watch my friends go off with girlfriends, however I haven't ever felt attracted to anyone and I don't truly even love my family. I view it all as pointless. I find it easier to appear "normal" by just copying others reactions. I am described by others as extremely "blunt" as I don't bother with being "insulted" and I haven't the first clue when it comes to sarcasm. On top of that, i also have misophonia and feel a moderate amount of pain from eating noises, because of this I tend to be alone at lunches because a couple of minutes of this can cause pain for a couple of hours, this leads me to just avoid people more. I also don't know if it is related but I don't dream, I usually just do some complex questions that I didn't have time to do in the day and don't lose consciousness like you are supposed to, so you can move to your subconscious and actually dream. Not a clue what to do and I don't even know if this is what I have. Hopefully this helps someone understand the condition better because I don't have a clue.