Topic: Scared

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Scared
07.10.2014 by lmarie20

Hi all,

I'm 20 years old and I've spent almost my whole life wondering why I never had any good friendships, relationships connections with my family and why I didn't understand why I can't understand almost anything that other people say..while the people that I know and how the strangers I've watched, can, so easily.
I think I've found an answer to that - and that's Alexithymia. To be honest I'm terrified and I'm so lost in my head about it all, I don't really know how to take it? I'm sorry if this makes no sense to anyone, but this is how bad it is for me - I don't even know how to explain how I feel about this, I just know I'm alone with it and no one understands.

I am so desperate to understand it more, please can anyone help me?

Thanks,

Lauren

Hi Lauren
08.10.2014 by SnowWhite

first of all, be welcomed to this forum here. You are not alone with your feelings / not feelings. This is quite common, believe it or not. Alexi is a "passenger" of many sicknesses of mind. I will write you later again, well I have to get some things managed.

Until then Lauren, a nice name btw...

Snow

I wondered, too..
06.03.2015 by DXS

Why do people just "automatically know" they are upset with you after you say or do something, yet I am not aware that I am upset about something until 48 hours to two weeks after it happens?

You can say something to me and it just goes over with no reaction and then 48 hours later I am upset and then I try to confront the person and they have no memory of saying what they said (or they can easily "deny" just to make you look crazy, which is what my mom does).

I just don't connect to my feelings and I believe it's because my Mom "told" me how to "feel." I didn't agree with her but had to "fake it."

I'm tired of faking it.

Hello
06.03.2015 by lmarie20

i haven't been on here in a while.. I have had some personal troubles..
It's strange, isn't it?

I don't know if I'm happy about something when k know I 'should' be.. I.e.. When someone buys me a gift..I don't know what to say or do..I kind of freeze and feel awkward because I don't know how to feel or even what I'm feeling!?

Thanks for the replies!

Lauren

Friendships
06.03.2015 by DXS

Sometimes I chat up someone then they become my friend, then I realize I really don't want to be friends with them, but then it's too late, so I put up with them because I don't know how to "unfriend" someone. I don't do Facebook for that reason.

Lauren
07.03.2015 by lmarie20

I feel exactly the same.. I'd love to just ''unfriend' certain people from my life simply because I don't know how to deal with the emotions that are attached to relationships- whether there friends or 'partners/lovers'!

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