14.01.2015 by KTDarkness
Soooo i was born with deficient callosum (something that connects both sides of brain) but i didnt know until my 14 years. From a very young age i was the guy that observes people and dont want to take place to conversations and in general i enjoyed the time that i was playing alone, even though i had lots of friends and i was pretty social when i was with them. When i was 18 i had my 1st good realtionship, that didnt last long but i had much feelings for this girl, feelings of love for the first time (i hurt much bla bla bla). From that moment i started to learn more for myself with the help of some psycological books, checked lots of tests (in one of them had the result of INTJ) and it was pretty impressive that some of those results had some parts of my personality. Before 1 month i learned about alexithymia and try the test and it was possitive to high alexithymia, and then i said "here we go now i understandwhy i had all those reactions in the past". Im really cool with it, cause i learned that that missing part of my brain can cause this thing and cant be cured so easily. Im a really (really really) logical person and i like that all those imformations i gain are scanned by my logic and the actions that i take too. Furthermore quiet guy and i like being alone all the time and i enjoye being alone with my music or with a book instead of going out to do anything (except going for cofee). Two good friends of mine are teh opposite and we always desagree in the matters of love, romance and those conflicts are harsh to me, they always say to me that "im cold" in human relationships and stuff.
I have too confess something though.... When one of my friends crashed wtih his car (i observed all this) i didnt feel anything not even a worry or sadness, even though i wanted to i didnt cried or panicked and that was really strange for me.
I really wanted to discuss it with someone, thanks for taking the time read my stuff and sorry for my bad english is not my native language :)