Topic: What I've figured out so far

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What I've figured out so far
02.11.2016 by Lightsteal

I have feelings but I do not "feel" them.
People have told me that desire is also a feeling.
I don't feel desire, I just have it.

I do not feel pleasure, but I still enjoy things like video games. I don't know why I enjoy them and have no feeling associated with them that I can identify.

The only way that I can identify the way that I am feeling is by looking at my face in the mirror and trying to identify the emotion. I know that I experience happiness because I sometimes react with a smile, but I don't feel the happiness. My emotions influence the way that I behave, but I don't feel them.

I have no awareness of pleasure, emotions, or desires.

not the only one
02.11.2016 by thoughts

like in western movies...the scene with the dried hay ball rolling across the empty dead town.
or looking into a dark room and registering the items on a shelf...noticing a cold breeze.
just thoughts without feelings.

So thoughts
04.12.2016 by Z

might be telling lies, because sometimes feelings create thoughts, like you touch the fire, you feel it is hot and you think it'd be better not to touch the fire. But couldn't thoughts create feelings? For example, one might also think that she loves somebody but she doesn't feel the expected need to touch him. If she is told that love must be expressed with physical contact, the she should either think that love must be expressed with physical contact or feel the need to touch him.

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